Sooner or later in life you get to a point where you can feel disappointment and pain all over your body and mind because something in life did not go as you thought it would be. You maybe had the perfect plan of your life, thinking about your future career, the places you want to live in, the people you want to surround yourself with. And then bäm! something happens in your life which you would have never expected and you are sitting there, watching your own life passes by and you feel like you do not have any control anymore and don’t know how to react. Your mind is a genius but dangerous tool, it romanticizes a lot of situations, ideas and plans you have for your own happiness because thats what we do, we believe in the good. This is not a wrong way of living your life. If you fill yourself with mistrust you will not enjoy the moment because on the next corner something bad could happen to you.
This is life and it happens to all of us. Life is no candy shop where you can only buy the sweet things you need. Disappointments and failure leads to open new doors, to understand new perspectives and to think differently. It does not mean that your life is now in ruins, you should stop worrying and understand that it means that you have the opportunity to be the person you want to be and you feel to be.
It is getting cold and my mood is currently swarming around cinnamon chai lattes, cosy sweaters, candles, the smell of freshly baked cake and raindrops which are pattering on the rooftop. If anyone has read this so far, they’ll know its autumn time. It is really strange but this year I’m looking forward to autumn and winter and even christmas. It does not seem so far away anymore and I’m not craving for bittersweet summer memories. Currently I’m in the mood for the cold, rainy days and cosy tea times with friends. I often have the feeling that with the change of seasons, there comes a different attitude and mood in your inner thoughts and emotions too. You are getting prepared to change, to adapt and to rearrange your mind. I want to explore the nature on a regular basis now, I want to take walks, enjoy the autumn sun and just breath. I love the feeling when you are taking a walk and you are totally packed with loads of clothes because its so freezing you feel the cold on your cheeks and finally when you get home the hot tea and some sweets are so much more satisfying.
What I have recognized is that my taste in music changes a bit when its getting colder…I love those dark, heavy voices on whiskey and those scratchy, melodic guitar tunes even though in in general and especially in summer I prefer some more electro and techno tunes.
But my all-time favorite which would suit my autumn mood would be Bon Iver (listen to it).
To let go…
Why did I name my blog live to let it go? For me it contains everything what life is about. Let it go is one of the hardest tasks for most of the people. To let it go does not have a negative connotation in my eyes, it just makes you realize that you should write serenity in big words. Emotions are important, emotions reveal what we really want, where we want to go in life and serenity shows you that experiences and things that happen or have happened to us in life are important in order to let us grow. But do not let those experiences guide your path of life. Only through experiences you become the person you want to be but to be able to move on and let new experiences into our life we need to learn to let it go. We like the habit, the comfort we live in. Often, we do not feel ready for a change. Change does not has to be socially big, like moving to another city, getting a new job or getting married. Change is what happens inside of us and leads to the outside factors, which everyone can see eventually. Change can be a change in your nutrition, a change in how you treat people, a change in how you view the world or a change in how you cope with your past to only name a few examples.
I do not want to convince anyone with this statement but depending on my current state of mind I have those thoughts and just want to inspire and share. I hope that you can create the life you want to have no matter what risks you need to take.